a Conspiracy of Self

Strange title, I meant it that way. I discovered as cybercitizen, a old web text called Incunabula and Ong's Hat. http://http://www.incunabula.org/inc1.html, http://deoxy.org/inc2.htm.

These texts are half-samizdat, half-spiritual alchemy, half-lies, half-truths, and all mystery wrapt in an enigma. I deliberately called it a conspiracy of self, because when you examine the content's of incunabula, you'll be confused pissed off, and obsessed. Questioning the current consensus reality, and looking at what is life, human existence, and the noosphere. this catalog allows you to look into your soul, self and spirit and examine this spiritual paradigm. the excess and horrid mundaneness of life takes a hit with Incunabula. I started with Incunabula in my early 20's and still use it as personal barometer of my spiritual well-being.I Explored facets of magick, tantra, sex, drugs and renegade living, To understand myself. I used these books and own some, others I've located or have found similar ones; but I'll leave that up to you. Sorry, I like making spiritual exploring difficult. life wasn't meant to be easy. When i delved deeper i saw man is more than flesh and bone. we are more than people stuck in this matrix like reality. we are beings with immense power to transcend space and time. but, there is no driver's manual. it takes practice and studying others that have transcended this paradigm. When i studied the methods of magick and shamanism, i discovered that time is liquid or fluid and is as powerful as doing yoga or depriving yourself in womb of water. you blank out of yourself and witness life outside yourself. as i sit here typing i know some of the naive will explore without caution and reservation. others with fling themselves over the cliff like a fool or be a trailblazer pushing life and time with a reckless abandon , and not giving a damn. I 've chased demons, angels, supra natural beings, and still i thrive for truth, with no barriers. necronomicons, grimores, physical pain and pleasure, pan sexuality, secret cults and societies, and still , i know there is more than what i am. What is this book a trick? Is the book of lies such? I'm now a husband, uncle and eventually father. i still challenge society with a determination to transcend. i may not get rich, but I'm wealthy i know what others don't , religions are fearful of what i know. fuck them. But i always warn the neophyte if you delve in you can't escape. be careful and always get a second opinion.

23 skidoo